Wednesday

Well Wednesday started with a visit to the dentist! Hehe I have never had an overwhelming love for going there but I don't hate it like I here so many people do. I got the check up and I have a few cavities but it is nothing that cant be fixed. They were all very nice people there so I think they have my business for a good long time now.

I had testing for school today. I did oh so very well on that. Honors English and reading and tested strait into college math. I am really happy about that! Sounds funny but I cannot wait to take my first test in my first class.

Kathrine ended up coming over to take care of her computer. There are still viruses lurking about. Nasty little things that wont go away. Her school needs to completely wipe her Mac and start from scratch. Of course this means if she does not back up her files that she looses them. That also means if she backs up the wrong files she will still have the virus. So a long process of picking through her computer is inevitable.

While that was happening I took off to go find out what classes I would be taking for fall. I also had a stack of paper work that needed to be done but that was buzzed through fast enough. I ended up choosing Astronomy and Sociology. The list was very short...shorter than the last time I had looked. These two classes will interest me greatly so I am very happy with the choices. I am only a half time student but with everything that is going on for me I think that is just fine.

After I go back Kathrine and I talked about the conversation that was to be had that night between Tim, herself and I. So many good things were said. It made me feel very comfortable with what was going to happen.

She took off to have dinner with Tim and I cleaned and moved items around until it was time to take off for the Lock Up. While there I got a lot accomplished. Kathrine and Tim showed up when they were done to help. By then I had finished but it was a good thing they were there because it led to the rest of the night and Kathrine gave me a painting of hers I have always loved<3 Tim seemed so awkward as we were at the lock up. I wanted things to go smoother between us but I guess that would be expecting a lot.

We all headed out to Coon Rapids to have our talk. It was obvious that no one wanted the conversation but it was one that has been needed to be had for so long.

To be honest I don't remember a lot of it. I remember all they key points well enough but there was a lot of emotion and it swirled my thoughts like a whirlpool. Everything that needed to be addressed last night was talked about. Everything is the way it needs to be now. However there were casualties of the talk. Tim, he did the best he could. I don't fault him for that. Some of the things he said were not appropriate and some misdirected the conversation and others focused on completely wrong parts such as the words that were being used. But I know he is a good man. I know that was just stress. I understand where he was coming from and I don't fault him. I hope we may even become friends in the future. I would like that a lot. Only time will tell. The biggest casualty was with Kathrine and I though. During the conversation there was a time when I reached out to hold her hand and she would have nothing to do with it. There was also another miscommunication with terms and points of view. When I tried to reach out to correct the miscommunication I had realized that had taken place right after the words left my mouth she pulled away. Nothing has ever hurt as much as reaching out to help and comfort and to have her pull away like that. I understood the reasons. I don't want to be mistaken. That hurt is not there now. It lasted only the moment that we were talking about it but I felt so bad that it had to happen. The conversation was worth what took place. I know it was but I did feel very alone at that point and I truly hope that never has to happen again.

After Tim left she crawled into bed with me and we talked more about what had happened. How that situation is now utterly and totally in the past where it needs to be. We also talked about how burnt out we were. We have been at this for so long setting so many things right. It has been so stressful to both of us but now it is done. It is all behind us. We no longer need to think of it as happening but as happened. We are at the point where we begin to heal after all of this for more than a week at a time. Our future is in front of us with none of the previous boundaries. In the months to come we will become so much stronger as individuals and as a couple as we start dating and making our relationship the one we have always dreamed of.

The pain and the stress is behind us. All that is left to do is to walk unimpaired to our goals.